Am I Being Selfish?

If you are wondering about the Kansas thing, it is still a real possibility. Actually, more than just a possibility. They are just down to crunching numbers.
For my husband's sake I really really hope that it all works out. It would be great for his career, most likely fantastic for his psyche, not to mention his overall health. By health I mean because he won't have to eat 3 meals a day at restaurants, two weeks of the month.
Still, there is a part of me that just wants to stay. Stay where I am. Stay where it is familiar. Stay where everything stays the same. Am I just afraid? Am I just nervous? Or am I being selfish?
In my old Christian days, I would have just let him decide as he is the head of the house. Now that I am beyond that, or maybe just older and wiser, I want to have my say. I want to have it my way. Ugghhhh! Totally torn. In the morning I am all excited about the possibilities and in the evening... not so much. I know I will miss my daughters and my three sweet little granddaughters. I also know that my 4 year old will be just fine. So will I. So will we. So what is with me?????